my secret garden

Study weeks

2010-12-18T11:06:00.001+08:00

Happy go lucky, this is how people see me. They never thought that (maybe some would) I will be sad or have any other emotion except for being happy and cheerful. Last two weeks was really a disaster for me. All of sudden I would feel like crying, without any reason, just want to cry. Maybe because home alone, what I did not try for quite some times after I moved in to stay with my brother. Luckily I still have my darling Jean came over to stay overnight with me during the weekends though there were two nights she came back after I slept. And I also have my darling 33.

Anyway, during my two weeks of home alone, I learned to cook few simple dishes and I cooked my darling Jean breakfast last Saturday when she was here, she is the first person who tasted my dish. Cooking is not bad at all, the part I hate the most is cleaning part after the cooking. I think I wouldn’t be cooking that often anymore. Or I got someone to do the cleaning for me.

Another thing to mention, my sixth sense came true again. This time is my darling Jean. What I had told her three weeks ago had came true and I wasn’t allowed to say “I told you so”, so intelligent me had sang it out. *evil grin* (Told you that I am an evil girl) Honestly, I know how she feels. Girl like us (who have commitment phobia) enjoy single life too much and we’ve seen or experienced the relationship that started because the guy likes you and treats you so good and automatically you will accept the guy to be your boyfriend. Most of the time, the guy doesn’t even (bother to) know who you are, he just saw what you show and will think that you are a sweet girl. Therefore, we don’t want that to happen again. I know that she enjoys texting with him, stress less. Personally, I think that kid is kinda sweet and romantic. If for any other girls that get confession like this, (I would not reveal what kind of confession it is) for sure will fall for him but unfortunately my darling is just not any other girls out there that with lot of fantasy.

Recently I had some quality conversation with my friend. I’m glad to know that he moved on and hopefully our friendship will go on.

My darling Vis had came back to Malaysia for 2 days after her study trip in China. As usual, our busiest Ivise Gan could only spare a dinner session for us. That day, Jean was staying at my place. Initially she planned to go home and accompany her family while I was going to church but her mom and bro were at KL so she decided to go to church with me. And because 33 asked me to dress up (due to church’s tri-fest celebration) so I asked Jean to dress up too. Therefore, we rushed back to Puchong to get Jean to dress up (as you all know my clothes are too loose for her, and FYI, she lose weight again). When we were in church, Jean received call from Ivise saying that she was back from Malacca and without exception and for the togetherness, Jean made Ivise to dress up too. So after the service we went to Puchong to fetch Ivise and dropped by Jean’s home to visit her new family member, baby snake. When we were still there and deciding where to have our dinner, our long-time-no-see-Kenneth called and asked if we wanted to go to the soft launch of La Bodega @ Empire. Since we’ve dress up and there were free flow of drink and food, we didn’t see the point of not going and another reason of course to meet my fan shu, Kenneth.

Once we reached there, Jean and I like hungry ghost and started to eat (our previous meal was the breakfast I cooked). After some drink, finally 33 arrived with her SJ. Once again, KEYS were together and for those who know us should also know that there wouldn’t be any quiet moment if four of us gather together. After some update and some cocktail and wine. We started our cam whoring session again. Lucky us for having two gentlemen (a.k.a. chao ah gua) to join us for the session, one holding camera and another one holding handbags. They were so ‘guai’ and followed our instruction to post and take some adorable pictures. Both of them were more ladylike than I am, ish…. It’s been very long that we didn’t take picture like this. Feel like go back to those old good times when we ignored how other people look at us. After years, we are still same old us, we still ignored them. Bravo to KEYS + SJ + Kenneth.

After the session at La Bodega, 33, SJ and I who were having exam headed back to home while Ivise, Jean and Kenneth were heading to Mist Club at Bangsar.

My darling 33 is going to Tokyo next week. She is so in love with her bf and he treats her so well which cause us some stress when we want to find a boyfriend cos most probably we will compare our admirer with him. *envy* 33 will be spending her Christmas in Japan so I will be alone going to church on Christmas Day, luckily I still have my share group members. I will be going to Cameron this Sunday with my share group member. I am sure it will be a very enjoyable trip. The last time I went to Cameron was with the Nilai gang and my darlings. After 2.5 years, Cameron I AM COMING!!!

About me, started to work on Wednesday, I was so not ready to work after such a long break. The first day I almost missed the bus and reached office sharp 8.30am which is very rare case that I reach office that late. The worst thing is, I was asked to finalize a file and I had to go out on that day. When I reached client’s office, I was extremely blurred. I don’t even know what should I get from client. I definitely don’t know what was going on that day. Anyway, caused the client’s office is just at Taman Megah, so I got to get home early (cos I insisted not to go back to office after that). Therefore, I was still able to cook myself dinner for the week. *clapping hands*

This might be my last post for 2010. Wish every one

Merry Christmas

Happy New Year

For those who didn’t get any Christmas gift, don’t worries as the biggest and best gift has already give to us – Jesus Christ.

笨女人

2010-12-01T18:42:00.000+08:00

发现这世界上真的很多笨女人。女人还真是容易受骗的动物。即使是小白兔被大野狼骗过一次就学聪明了，而女人在被男人骗了一次又一次，还是笨笨的选择相信。该说女人可怜呢，还是无脑？女人是感性动物，即使大脑发出讯号说要理智，可是这些往往都输给感情。说真的，到底这世界上有几个可以相信的男人？看过太多的劈腿和婚外情，甚至有些是我的‘家人’更讽刺的是当时年幼无知的我既然知道。所以现在的我应该要学着聪明点，不要被男人骗。青春宝贵啊，别浪费在不值得的人事物上。

watching movie alone

2010-11-25T22:16:00.000+08:00

For the first time, I went to watch movie by myself. Alone, without any companion, any planning, all I did was just walked to the counter and see what movie that looked interesting and the timing suits me. Then pay and walk into cinema.

Last 2 weeks I just talked to my darling that if 1 day I learned to watch movie by myself is the time that I do not need a boyfriend. Somehow, I learned. Does that mean I do not need a boyfriend anymore? I seriously don’t know. All I know is watching movie alone is not a bad idea at all. You do not need to ask everyone that what movie that they haven’t watch or what timing suit everyone the best. You just need to know what movie you what to watch and what time you are available. Still I don’t mean that watching movie with my pals is not good but it’s really been a long time that I did not watch movie with my gang. The last movie that I watched with more than 2 persons is with my share group and I don’t even remember the title of the movie.

I really miss those times watching movie with my gang though they are indecisive and always not agree with our suggestion but never come out with a better suggestion, still I miss them. I think this kind of gathering gonna be less and lesser over the time and the fact that one of the couple had broke up early this year plus our active organizer, Ivise Gan is study overseas. Ever since, we didn’t really have a gathering. Our most recent gathering been postponed for 2 weeks. I still don’t know when is exact date.

ps: thinking want to upload pic but my phone cant connect to pc. maybe next time. =P

倪安東 - Sorry That I Loved You [ 高畫質official 官方MV ]

2010-11-19T12:21:00.000+08:00

this song is nice, the guy is cute
for my darling jean n vis, finally i post a song that u can understand.

《没那么爱他》范玮琪 Mei Na Me Ai Ta (HQ 高清)

2010-11-15T13:52:00.001+08:00

没那么爱他歌词
你有权利情绪化
你不一定要坚强
便有些事情不能伪装
别为自己设了框
我懂失去的悲伤
也懂进退的挣扎
但想起过去都是失望
又何必要放不下
是习惯还是爱
不放心还是不甘心
只有你自己知道解答
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
编织过的梦想
自己也可以抵达
谁说一定要有他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下
深呼吸抬头望
发现天空很宽广
这世界那么大
幸福总会在某个地方
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
拥有过的计划
留给值得的对象
你知道不会是他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下

Joke of the day

2010-11-02T14:59:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I have a question, when those people are teaching you something, are they really sure what are they talking about? They don’t even know the name of the things that they are talking about. How do I rely on what they taught me?

说话爹嗲声嗲气有时很可爱，或许男人也觉得很可爱。可是有时太过火就变得做作和~~讨人厌~~。而且日常生活对同事这样，我不觉得可爱。

Joke of the date: “a bit sweet.” I heard as “a big shit”. I dunno if that is my ear problem or her pronunciation problem. Another one is “VAT” but again, I heard as “BAT”

Another joke of the day. A 25 years old female (sorry, cos I dunno how to categorize her as girl, lady or woman. Cos she is not young, but childish. She is not ladylike but she has long curly hair, though sometimes like grass, she is not matured but she is 25!!) cannot differentiate dutch and French. A dutch airline but she kept telling me is French.

Johore Bahru

2010-11-01T18:52:00.000+08:00

Johore Bahru, is not a very good place for me. I did not have a very good impression on it. Maybe is because of the client. They are really shitty. For the first two days, they let the auditor from the ISO to sit in their big nice conference room, while 5 of us had to squeeze in a tiny room with a tiny table which usual used by people for hi-tea. Try to imagine, 5 of us, 5 laptops, with all the stationeries, files and documents. I really don’t know how did we survive here. Then the third day, the auditor from ISO had actually left but still, they did not let us to move to the bigger room and our AM came in to review file on the same day. Another thing is, as an auditor for more than half a year, this is the first time I did not get access to client’s document. What we could do only to sample select and pass the list to them, they will find out all the documents for us. If they did it fast, we are ok with that but the things that we requested on the first day, we only got it on the second day night. When I said night, that really means night not evening. Except for the first day we got to go back to hotel before sun set. The second day we only got back to hotel at 10pm. Third day, 12am. Fourth day, 9.30pm. Fifth day, finally we can go home. But that not end my days at JB, on the fourth night, I don’t know what happened to me. When I got back to hotel, I vomited twice and the next morning I got diarrhea until noon. And now, when I am writing this blog, I still having headache.

29 October, 2010. 4.30pm

Weekend

2010-10-25T23:18:00.001+08:00

At Johore now, just finished doing my term loan which is not as hard as I think. Maybe this one is not as complicated as I thought. The last weekend was a hell for me. Start from Friday night, I stayed back at office and worked until 11pm to finish all the jobs before heading to Johore today. (This might very common for those who work in big firm but it’s NOT for me.) The next morning, which is the only day I could wake up a bit later but unfortunately I woke up at 7.30am (which is slightly later than my usual wake up time). So I decided to go for a jog. After a 2 rounds jog, I went back home and did the entire house cleaning. Around 4.30pm while waiting for my brother reply, I fell asleep. By the time my brother replied me and also the time I woke up from my nap (FYI, this is my first nap since I joined audit.) was already 6.30pm which made my plan to go to church blown.

After all these, I watched my drama and movies. (Yea, this made my Saturday not that bad.) One of the movies I watched was ‘Step Up’. It’s a nice movie and I enjoyed it very much. Because of the 2 hours nap, I couldn’t fall asleep for the whole night. And I slept at 3.30am and the next morning I still need to wake up early to go to class. Luckily the class ended early and I could go home early and pack my things for today trip. Around 11pm, I already went on bed because I had to wake up at 4.30am to meet up my colleagues and then go to airport. On the way to airport actually I could sleep for a while but my big mouth colleagues keep on talking. I really wanted to ask them to shut up but I still have my manner, so I didn’t do that. Luckily when we were in the flight, they were seated separately so that I could sleep for around 1hour and after the driver fetched us. I supposed I could sleep for another half an hour but again, big mouths were opened again. And.. I couldn’t sleep again. After reached client’s place, unbelievably our ‘smart’ client let us to sit in ‘tiny’ room which is not bigger than 3mtr X 3mtr and there are 5 of us. While the bigger room they leave it for the ISO auditor. My back and neck was so painful.

Time to sleep…

Paramore: The Only Exception

2010-10-25T23:05:00.000+08:00

recently keep listening to this song. it's not dat it's in my playlist. just from radio.

it's ok to be different

2010-10-22T13:40:00.000+08:00

Guess where am I now? Where can I be if not in office then it would be client’s office. Why am I so free blogging at this hour? Actually is my lunch time, just finished my packed rice then thinking what should I do now. Nothing better than writing a new blog, and I am into blogging again. Don’t know why, feeling so good when you can express yourselves through words.

I just watched ‘all about steve’ two nights ago. I wasn’t free but I ran out of drama and I need some voice when I was doing my work. So, from a whole box of DVSs that my brother passed to me, I chose this one to watch. Before this I never know that Sandra Bullock can be so 38 but the guy, Steve is so cute. (I forgotten his name, XXX Church) why is it so hard to find a guy with nice body here? Actually my point here is it’s ok to be different, in the movie, Sandra as Mary is a cross word conductor, she is like an encyclopedia she can tell you the history and things behind very simple thing. Not much people like her because she talks too much (quite similar like me, just that I talked crap.) and her red boots but she is happy with her life. It’s ok to be single, as long as I am happy with my life, no one can give any comment on it. If you wanted to, then live your life before you comment mine.

Hmm… enough with the daydreaming, it’s time to get back to work. XOXO…

jumping off

2010-10-17T22:47:00.002+08:00

Looking out from my window, suddenly think of what would be the feeling of jumping off from 13^th floor. (For those who don’t know, now I’m staying at 13^th floor.) The feeling could be so cool. I never thought of I could have that kind of thinking. I’m not so adventurous person in my real life, though sometimes I have some wild thought but for real, I never really did that. Am I a coward? Maybe yes. I still remember there is once my friend asked me why I don’t get a boyfriend. I answered him that I scared of commitment. I don’t know why, maybe being alone for too long and too used to it.

Some time ago, I had a discussion with my darling about why do we get into a relationship if we never think of getting married at this age. Is it really because of ~~love~~ or just about ~~lust~~? Is it just a guy or girl there for us to have physical touch and we wouldn’t be called as slut or pervert? I found that is so true. (I know my darling vis wouldn’t agree with this.) Being into a relationship we need to really trust and have faith to the other half and I find it very difficult to trust someone. After seeing so many real life stories even my family. Even someone that pretended how good he is, how noble he is, but for me, he is just a bastard. Sometimes, as a Christian I really doubt that the things that done or said by Christians are all true. Can I really trust a guy that I can live the rest of my life with him? Maybe I need some counseling. Relationship is the most adventurous activity in this world, more adventurous than sky diving. Hope everyone can get their true love. Love you…

2010

2010-10-03T18:01:00.004+08:00

There been a very long time that I did not write anything about my life. For this 1 year, lot of things had happened in my life and so to the people around me. I already left my first job in the beginning of the year and changed to audit line. Audit is not as bad as i think, i quite like the job but it wouldn't be permanent for me to stay in current firm. Just wait for the right time to move on to a bigger firm. In July, I moved out from Sterling condo where I had been stayed for 1 year and moved in to stay with second brother and his family. My second niece is born in April, she is a lovely cute little girl. In july, I went to Taipei with my family, to be exact they are mom, sis n Samuel, I dearest nephew.

Something that I learned during this period is when someone says something, they might not really mean it. So don’t believe things 100%. Cos u might need to bear the consequences and they could just leave u behind. Another thing I learned is, move on. Don’t stay at comfort zone, life is just not like how it is now. If u think that the situation is bad, there are people out there facing worse circumstances. So be give thank for everything, god would never assign us to do something that we couldn't’t handle.

During this period, i also got to know a lot of people most of them are due to job and some are not. Through these people i do learn alot of thing, new firm does train my communication skill not only to clients but also to colleagues. In this firm the major language is Mandarin, which do not help me to improve my english so i need to write more to improve my english now. my new job also train my patience, not only dealing with clients but also colleague. somehow i still couldn't find a close one like i got last time and somes that i got close to already left the firm. mayb i should just be more childish. not dat i m matured but i dun really be childish in my workplace, i dun act silly except in front of ppl dat i close to.

Actually, I just want to make sure myself can write down while I still remember. These days I tend to forget thing easily. I tend to ignore thing around me. not being caring, sometimes my friendliness can be faked. Maybe I might not be as bubbly as people can see, maybe I m just a good faker. I might be a devil that full the evil thought. Sorry for those who think that I am a naïve, innocent girl. Cos I m really not.

For my darlings, i will try to update my blog at least once a month. i will try but im not sure if i could do dat. so please remind me if i din update my blog.

September

2009-10-22T11:17:00.007+08:00

After my colleague had left the company and I have to take over her job, I have very long time did not blog for very long time. So since today I have nothing much to do yet, so I decided to write a blog now, or else, I have no time to blog, and my darlings will start to complain that I did not update myself.

Here is it, my short summary about my September life.

I have I done recently, nothing much except I got few tests to go through. Beginning of September, I went for a karaoke session with 33, jean, Suzanne, Terence, and Choong. That day was a really good outing and we really did not spend time like that for very long.

On one fine night, Zi Yuan was asking 33, Choong, Jean and me to go out to drink. With Jean’s directory, we went to a beer house at Puchong. At there, we girls were cam-whoring and had lots of fun. Another very important thing that we found out that day is, ZY is a SS king. He can act cuter than our 33, which made us feel like don’t want to take picture with him, cause we could never be cuter than him and he is a guy. Wait for Ivise to come back then we sure can win. Anyway, we got to involve Choong in our SS session and he can act innocent too.

For the long weekends, Hari Raya holidays, I spent most of my time with Jean. I was staying at her house and we went to accompany Aunty Lilian to shop for her cloth and I got treated for some nice food especially soup made by Aunty Lilian. From this home stay, I got to know gor gor, Jaray (we call him as Chin Fei more often) better that both of us play those FB boring application – Restaurant City, which really killed our time. But somehow we like it. And I found out where is Jean’s SS gene come from, it’s from Chin Fei!!!

Besides, Jean and I also got to spend some precious time with our long lost contact buddy, Kenneth Cheah, who will only appear when he is single and available. Not to be mean but this is the truth and he, himself also admitted that. Even I had not seen him for more than one year (the last time we met was our convocation) but we still as close as last time and he is still my fan shu. Another buddy, Zi Yuan whom I almost will meet him once a week, (which even more frequent than my darling jean whom I only meet up when both of us are not lazy and free) just confessed to me that he had a girl friend few days before, told us that he intended to break up with his gf (at that moment) and he did it few days after. We went to drink beer at a beer house in Puchong and I found that I really cannot drink beer which really makes me half dead (even I was the one who drank the least that night).

That’s about my September. What had happened so far for my October? I cannot really recall it now, will update my blog once I remember what had happened recently. (Really envy those bloggers can blog so much things and that’s explained why I can’t just stay at home sit in front of my lappy and earn money.)

my day

2009-08-24T08:29:00.000+08:00

Today, I heard the very well-known quote “life is not about how long is it, it is about how wide you live it” this is very true. We will never know when we will die, but as long as we live, we should live it as wide as we can. I am thinking what I had done for 22 years. I went through PTS, UPSR, PMR, UEC (Jr), SPM, UEC (Sr), degree and now doing ACCA. Like what 33 said, we spent more than half of our lives in studying. Some nobles said study is for learning knowledge but not to pass exam. As far as I live now, except kindergarden (which I couldn’t recall), almost every teacher and lecturer, the first day they come into the class, they will tell you how is the marking scheme and the format of the exam. Is this what they called knowledge-based education? I am not agreed with that. If they really want to implement knowledge-based education, then there should no exam at all. Children study base on their own interests. This is what I call knowledge-based education but this will never happened. The conclusion is, the nobles know how to talk crap.

Back to the main topic, what had I done? I passed all of my major exams, some with flying color, some are not. I get to know bunch of great friends. From high school till college, I have friends went through all the happiness and sadness with me. We learned together, we grew up together, we laughed together and of course, we cried together. (Human likes to talk about the past and me too.) What achievement have I done so far? Feeding myself? This is not really can be proud of because some of my darlings already earning money when they were at the age of 20 and 21 and they had finished their degree too. This is so sad when I see that I have no achievement for my 22 years of life. What if I die tomorrow? Will I regret? Yes, for sure I will regret. So to not regret, to everyone I care, “I LOVE YOU!!”.

19 July 2009

2009-07-26T22:16:00.009+08:00

The day before, I went to class with 33, as usual, after class we went to church. After church we went to pyramid to have our dinner with choong. While we were eating there, terence came over to join us, (and actually he wanted to tumpang at my house) supposing Jean was joining us, but the traffic was too jam and she was ~~VERY TIRED~~ (cos she went to lepak until 5am the nite before) so she decided not to join us. After we had our dinner, we met Ken and Jeff. Nothing else to do, the guys went for a smoke break while 33 and I were second hand smokers * bad for health =( * Ken was still have to work after meeting us. There been very long that I didn’t meet him, he is all the while busy even when he was unemployed (susah sangat nak ajak).

The next day, 19 July 2009, after jean and her bro came to fetch Terence and I, we went to 1U to have our breakfast. We had burger king as breakfast after breakfast we went to cinema to get ready to watch our long-waited Harry Potter, the Half Blood Prince. Before movie, for sure we took few pictures, few really mean few cause was only 4-5 pictures, which is very less for us (cause our nice, pro, beautiful photographer is in Melbourne). Another reason that we took pictures is to show “how SHORT Ivy is?” YES! I am the shortest, this is not because I am really short but the persons that I went out with are TOO TALL. So this is totally NOT my problem. Actually the day before I was struggling that should I wear heels on that day to shorten distant between they and I.

Those tall people totally ignored me

Can’t cover even chin

Shot before the movie start

About Harry Potter, the Half Blood Prince, as usual, not up to expectation. Is this the norm that when a novel become a movie will always disappoint the readers? The answer is 98% YES. There are not much fighting scenes in the movie, but more kissing scenes, maybe all of them have grown up. Some parts of the story are not explained clearly, like why Snape calls himself as Half Blood Prince. This is because his mom’s surname is Prince and he is half blood, which means his father is a muggle, so he is Half Blood Prince. The funeral at the end of the book which made me cried is been cut!! So I didn’t cry when Dumbledore died. Hopefully the next movie will be better cause it will be split into 2 movies so they should have enough time to include all the story in the book into the movies.

After movie, we went to Carl’s Jr. to have lunch. Only Jean and Chin Fei (Jean’s bro) ate because Terence and I had whole burger for breakfast so we still felt full when Jean grave for Carl’s Jr.. Anyway, the burger is not as nice as the MidValley one. We had so much fun at Carl’s Jr., we were looking at a fat family, wondering how many burgers they will order, but they disappointed us. So we left and went for some window shopping. Around 5.00pm, we sent Chin Fei to Sunway to meet his friend and to go back to Kuantan. Gor gor… Sorry! I caused you left your bottle in the car.

Tiny Ivy vs. Mighty Chin Fei

Can you see me?

Our next destination is Ikea, The Curve. When we reached there, ZY, Choong and Jeff also come to join us. After a while, Choong and Jeff went to fetch 33 back from work, pitiful 33, still have to work on Sunday. And we were accompany Jean to get 33’s belated birthday present at Ikano Power Centre and we were walking up and down at Ikano Power Centre to get the best one for 33. So the fact that we walked a lot is not important, because we love 33. (Sweet? Cos I haven’t got present for 33) after that, we tempted Jean to eat cupcake with us. Why we tempted her? Because the week before her weight was only ~~46kg~~ and she is 171cm, so we have to make sure she get some calories, fat to get back to her normal weight. The cupcake is not very nice but we like Terence’s cupcake, orange chocolate more. Then we went jalan-jalan, we saw the Maxis roadshow, Terence got a keychain for Jean by throwing the paper into the dustbin. Must to mention Terence is a good shooter, and Jean, of course a lousy one, because she can’t even get one into the dustbin.

Our cupcake!!

Cupcake Chips

4 of us eating our cupcake

Terence's cupcake - Orange Chocolate

After that ZY dumped us to go to seremban to meet his friend. So 3 of us headed to Ikea to have our dinner. I don’t understand why Ikea restaurant always has so many people? The food is nice? I think only some are nice, not all. Cheap? No. Why were we going? Because we didn’t eat at Ikea for very long time. After dinner, we split into 2 gangs again, cos 33 had to work the day after, I had to work too, but not as tiring as her. Then we jalan-jalan in Ikea for a while, this time, Jeff was following us. I only realized that Jeff is a virus carrier. When Terence walks near to him, he will become retarded and uncivilized. And when he walks away from Jeff, he will back to normal again. What a scary virus!! I bought something from Ikea, it’s all planned, and I didn’t buy anything that out of plan. Brilliant? Yes, I know I am brilliant!!

Our food

Our normal gang that now very hard to gather together

SKY (trust me, we prefer KEYS)

Smoking zone

After we left Ikea, we went to SS2 to yam cha. After the yam cha session, then our day is end.

Pretend busy

2009-07-16T10:14:00.000+08:00

Once you go to work in my company, this first thing that you must learn is pretend to be busy. In this company, people feel uncomfortable when they see someone is free or just being relax for a while. They will start to tell everyone that you are very free, so others can assign their works to you even it is not related to your job scoop. Anyhow you have to do it because if you don’t do it, someone on top will get the rumor that you are not working hard. From there on, you will be watching.

So no matter what are you doing, just keep your serious face, even you are reading a funny joke or looking at funny pictures, make sure you don’t laugh. This is what my colleagues do even my manager too. They look very serious even they are fb-ing or msn-ing. So they are the hardworking employees while me, try to look serious while typing my blog in the office at 10.30am.. Like Ivise had said earlier, put my poker face on while I am in the office, Try to not show my emotion on my face.

Is this a must for working personnel? I want to be a full time student!!

Place that i want to go

2009-07-14T11:50:00.001+08:00

Where do i want to go? Actually there are a few places that i want to go. Recently, the number is increasing. so i wonder wheather i can earn that much to get myself to travel to so many places.

Taiwan, 2010 (to attend hii en's graduation)
Melbourne, before 2011 (before ivise graduate)
London, 2011 (for Harry Potter last movie premiere)
Greece (the place i always wan to go)
New Zealand (a place that i just found have so much fun besides the cows and sheeps)
China (surprise? wan to go to lot of places in China bcos d sceneries are so beautiful, andChinese said "as a Chinese, you have to go to Great Wall once in your life time")
Europe (definitely a place with so much treasures that can be found, mayb i will get a blue eyes husband from there)

and a lot more that didn't come to my mind now.

Teaching Science and Math in English

2009-07-10T09:56:00.003+08:00

Our not so bright cabinet had decided to revert the teaching of math and science to Bahasa Melayu or mother tongue. I was so curious why are they so naive that thinking using bahasa or mother tongue (mandarin, tamil) is an action that show them love their language. do they know that their action will cause our next generation to be pulled back to compete with other countries. while they were proposing this idea, most of them are sending their children to study in some international schools which are using english as the medium of teaching. how many ministers sending their children to local university? yes, they are right. we still can have a lot of doctors with teaching math and science in bahasa. but compare with other countries, are they that outstanding?

they said that the result of teaching science and math in english is not up to expectation, so they wan to revert to BM. come on, how can you see the outcome with only 6 years spent? how many years had be used to produce proton saga and develop the automobile industry in malaysia? now is about education, 6 years is not enough to judge the outcome.

i still remembered that when teaching science and math in english was first introduced, i was so happy. i felt that our next generation has the hope to compete with others. now what? please, dont be silly. with this so bright decision had been made. i see that m'sia is not moving on but stepping back to 20th century.

read the mahathir's post. be bright malaysian.

~~my secret garden~~