Weekend

At Johore now, just finished doing my term loan which is not as hard as I think. Maybe this one is not as complicated as I thought. The last weekend was a hell for me. Start from Friday night, I stayed back at office and worked until 11pm to finish all the jobs before heading to Johore today. (This might very common for those who work in big firm but it’s NOT for me.) The next morning, which is the only day I could wake up a bit later but unfortunately I woke up at 7.30am (which is slightly later than my usual wake up time). So I decided to go for a jog. After a 2 rounds jog, I went back home and did the entire house cleaning. Around 4.30pm while waiting for my brother reply, I fell asleep. By the time my brother replied me and also the time I woke up from my nap (FYI, this is my first nap since I joined audit.) was already 6.30pm which made my plan to go to church blown.

After all these, I watched my drama and movies. (Yea, this made my Saturday not that bad.) One of the movies I watched was ‘Step Up’. It’s a nice movie and I enjoyed it very much. Because of the 2 hours nap, I couldn’t fall asleep for the whole night. And I slept at 3.30am and the next morning I still need to wake up early to go to class. Luckily the class ended early and I could go home early and pack my things for today trip. Around 11pm, I already went on bed because I had to wake up at 4.30am to meet up my colleagues and then go to airport. On the way to airport actually I could sleep for a while but my big mouth colleagues keep on talking. I really wanted to ask them to shut up but I still have my manner, so I didn’t do that. Luckily when we were in the flight, they were seated separately so that I could sleep for around 1hour and after the driver fetched us. I supposed I could sleep for another half an hour but again, big mouths were opened again. And.. I couldn’t sleep again. After reached client’s place, unbelievably our ‘smart’ client let us to sit in ‘tiny’ room which is not bigger than 3mtr X 3mtr and there are 5 of us. While the bigger room they leave it for the ISO auditor. My back and neck was so painful.

Time to sleep…

Paramore: The Only Exception

recently keep listening to this song. it's not dat it's in my playlist. just from radio.

it's ok to be different

Guess where am I now? Where can I be if not in office then it would be client’s office. Why am I so free blogging at this hour? Actually is my lunch time, just finished my packed rice then thinking what should I do now. Nothing better than writing a new blog, and I am into blogging again. Don’t know why, feeling so good when you can express yourselves through words.

I just watched ‘all about steve’ two nights ago. I wasn’t free but I ran out of drama and I need some voice when I was doing my work. So, from a whole box of DVSs that my brother passed to me, I chose this one to watch. Before this I never know that Sandra Bullock can be so 38 but the guy, Steve is so cute. (I forgotten his name, XXX Church) why is it so hard to find a guy with nice body here? Actually my point here is it’s ok to be different, in the movie, Sandra as Mary is a cross word conductor, she is like an encyclopedia she can tell you the history and things behind very simple thing. Not much people like her because she talks too much (quite similar like me, just that I talked crap.) and her red boots but she is happy with her life. It’s ok to be single, as long as I am happy with my life, no one can give any comment on it. If you wanted to, then live your life before you comment mine.

Hmm… enough with the daydreaming, it’s time to get back to work. XOXO…

jumping off

Looking out from my window, suddenly think of what would be the feeling of jumping off from 13^th floor. (For those who don’t know, now I’m staying at 13^th floor.) The feeling could be so cool. I never thought of I could have that kind of thinking. I’m not so adventurous person in my real life, though sometimes I have some wild thought but for real, I never really did that. Am I a coward? Maybe yes. I still remember there is once my friend asked me why I don’t get a boyfriend. I answered him that I scared of commitment. I don’t know why, maybe being alone for too long and too used to it.

Some time ago, I had a discussion with my darling about why do we get into a relationship if we never think of getting married at this age. Is it really because of love or just about lust? Is it just a guy or girl there for us to have physical touch and we wouldn’t be called as slut or pervert? I found that is so true. (I know my darling vis wouldn’t agree with this.) Being into a relationship we need to really trust and have faith to the other half and I find it very difficult to trust someone. After seeing so many real life stories even my family. Even someone that pretended how good he is, how noble he is, but for me, he is just a bastard. Sometimes, as a Christian I really doubt that the things that done or said by Christians are all true. Can I really trust a guy that I can live the rest of my life with him? Maybe I need some counseling. Relationship is the most adventurous activity in this world, more adventurous than sky diving. Hope everyone can get their true love. Love you…

2010

There been a very long time that I did not write anything about my life. For this 1 year, lot of things had happened in my life and so to the people around me. I already left my first job in the beginning of the year and changed to audit line. Audit is not as bad as i think, i quite like the job but it wouldn't be permanent for me to stay in current firm. Just wait for the right time to move on to a bigger firm. In July, I moved out from Sterling condo where I had been stayed for 1 year and moved in to stay with second brother and his family. My second niece is born in April, she is a lovely cute little girl. In july, I went to Taipei with my family, to be exact they are mom, sis n Samuel, I dearest nephew.

Something that I learned during this period is when someone says something, they might not really mean it. So don’t believe things 100%. Cos u might need to bear the consequences and they could just leave u behind. Another thing I learned is, move on. Don’t stay at comfort zone, life is just not like how it is now. If u think that the situation is bad, there are people out there facing worse circumstances. So be give thank for everything, god would never assign us to do something that we couldn't’t handle.

During this period, i also got to know a lot of people most of them are due to job and some are not. Through these people i do learn alot of thing, new firm does train my communication skill not only to clients but also to colleagues. In this firm the major language is Mandarin, which do not help me to improve my english so i need to write more to improve my english now. my new job also train my patience, not only dealing with clients but also colleague. somehow i still couldn't find a close one like i got last time and somes that i got close to already left the firm. mayb i should just be more childish. not dat i m matured but i dun really be childish in my workplace, i dun act silly except in front of ppl dat i close to.

Actually, I just want to make sure myself can write down while I still remember. These days I tend to forget thing easily. I tend to ignore thing around me. not being caring, sometimes my friendliness can be faked. Maybe I might not be as bubbly as people can see, maybe I m just a good faker. I might be a devil that full the evil thought. Sorry for those who think that I am a naïve, innocent girl. Cos I m really not.

For my darlings, i will try to update my blog at least once a month. i will try but im not sure if i could do dat. so please remind me if i din update my blog.